Guts And Grace

It has been over three months since I have visited this space. I have been running away from it, actually. Running away from the work it requires, Running away from knowing that SliceOfFeist is no longer the fusion of a couple’s artwork, Running away from the fact that cooking rarely occurs in my home now, and Running away from how much I love to nurture this space. Each time I have typed something beginning with an “s” into my browser, sliceoffeist.com would pop up, and I would run away. Closing my eyes. Pushing any button to make it disappear. With panic rising in my blood, teeth clenching and heart ache taking over, I would promise myself that this space still patiently waited for me. That I could always return.

I awoke on August 2nd, one year older and absolutely alert. Alert to the choices begging to be made and alert to the bluish fog that had been blurring my vision. So, I had to leave this little space for a wee time to 1. fully launch into my cake business, Slice Of Feist, (located at The Niwot Market!!!), 2. re-charge and re-ignite my creative powers, 3. learn how to do a handstand 4. understand the art of alchemy 4. and walk away from my almost 8 year relationship with the ever lovely and talented Mr Lentz. Yes, it has been quite a ride. And although it has been hard and trying, it has also been a wonderful, empowering and hugely productive ride. Every day I wake up and say “thank you.” My grandmother worked like hell to infuse me with her guts and grace, and I think perhaps she may have succeeded.

SarahLaP - It’s nice to have you back Lover. I’m so excited for your future. You are the most talented woman I know. The cuppy cakes are beautiful, and I’m sure they taste like heaven.

You can do this Kir.

You is smart.
You is kind.
You is beautiful.

Sarah

Mr. Lentz - Kirsten – I am so proud of you. I am glad to see you are back to writing again and can’t wait to read more and see more recipes! I sure as hell am going to need that extra help in making a tasty dish!

marie - you know what you need.

Cookie - Amazing things happen when we let go of what has been and embrace what is to come…… Birthing a new self is always precarious, but always worth it. As you are discovering, lots of guts mixed with inspired grace opens doors you never could have imagined before. I’ve taken many gutsy leaps and each time my life got bigger and full of more love.

Thanks for sharing your newly-found self with us, Kirsten. You have SO MUCH to offer, and CAKE is one of the best ways to offer your gutsy gracefulness to all of us! :) …..also, you are a very talented writer, please don’t stop writing and sharing how you see the world through your words. Your words are as important as your cakes.

Carrie - “Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.”

Kirsten - Carrie- Amen!

Kirsten - Cookie- What a great way to put it. “birthing a new self”. Perfect. Thank you for all of your lovely comments and your wonderful presence.

Kirsten - Marie- A good night’s sleep? haha!

Kirsten - Evan- Thanks!!!!!!!! You are wonderful, and I know that you can cook up a mean dish. You don’t need my help, you just need to follow your taste buds.

Dave - Welcome back, you were missed :-)

Linjung kim - Hi kirsten! I’m so proud of you for starting your own cake business! Congratulations! Today I went to the farmer’s market and bought a bunch of green veggies, came home and suddenly had no desire to cook. And suddenly I remembered your website- Trust me, you are not alone! We are all going through crazy turmoil and changes but somehow you remember to appreciate the little things, the positive forces that are always there for us when we need it. And good luck with doing a handstand- those things are challenging! Well, take care talented woman. I wish you the best!

Anna - What a beautiful post! You are inspiring as always lady. And you have to teach me your handstand secrets sometime. Loves. xx

Delighted In Dallas - You can have your cake and eat your cupcakes too! Ms. Larsen’s cunning culinary craftsmanship was put the test recently when I ordered a Sweet 16th Birthday cake (red velvet) and chocolate cupcakes with just a few days notice. Her cake baking mastery produced a dessert display as pleasing to the eye as it was the palate. The cake was beatifully decorated and the taste was incredible; the cupcakes were simply scrumptious.

Niwot Market is the place to go for cakes and cupcakes.

Kirsten - Alan- you are the best!!! Thank you so much for this wonderful comment. It was a pleasure baking for you and your family. I hope to make many more cakes for you in the future. Kindest Regards, Kirsten

Nancy/SpicieFoodie - Hi Kirsten, I’m sorry to have discovered your blog right when you are taking a break. But there is more important things for you to take care of right now. Wishing you the best of luck and continued success with your business. In the meantime I’ll devour your archives. BTW I love the last on your about page, so much fun :) Happy Holiday!

Bosom Buddies-Part 2

If there’s anyone who can convince me to bake with artificial colors and decorate a cake just for the heck of it, it’s Sarah. When she proposed that we make a rainbow cake, tall and majestic, I worried. She has always been the more spontaneous girl while I have been the practical worry monger. With only a couple of sticks of butter in the fridge, what could we possibly do? But when Sarah went crazy with a glue gun and created these cute flags, I knew that we had to make the most rockin’ cake ever to have been assembled in a farmhouse.

If I could kidnap anyone, preventing them from returning home, it would be my bosom buddy. I cried during half of this photo shoot. I couldn’t make eye contact with Sarah because the waterworks would start streaming. So I just kept my eyes on the cake and pretended she wasn’t about to board a plane back to Virginia.

So get out those radical, ADHD causing colors and go mad. Make something for only yourself and those you love most. Let the colors shine and go just a bit overboard.

Sarah, thank you for being the best.

All photographs were taken by the man who is allergic to red food coloring, our very own ginger, Evan Lentz.

Cookie - What great pictures! I’ve been wanting to make a rainbow cake…..,but I was kind of afraid of all that food coloring. :) I love the way you made it small and tall, and the flags were a perfect topping. Great friends are rare. I’m glad you two have each other!

SarahLaP - I just noticed this post!! I miss you like the dickens my little hippy! I can’t wait to you again and cry and bake more.
And we used beet juice for the red dye!
Sarah

Kazia Jankowski - Your pictures are adorable! And what a fun cake to make, hope it tasted good too!

Elizabeth - Rainbow cakes are the best!

lynn @ the actor’s diet - i’ve been obsessed w rainbow cakes lately. i really want to eat one!

Bosom Buddies- Part 1

If Sarah hadn’t existed, I would probably have been a rather lonely and pitiful kid. I would have played more games of Moniply and Scrabble by myself and I would have watched more episodes of Matlock with my grandmother. But Sarah found me when I was 3 years old. She wandered into my backyard, having run away from her home yet again, and rescued me from my solitary life as an only child. She introduced me to adventure, country music and her wild sense of humor.

Sarah came out to visit a few months ago, towards the end of our windy, sunny winter. As I filtered through these photographs, I came to realize that because of this feisty city girl, I have always had a sister. No one can make me laugh as hard, weep as freely, sing as loud or feel as safe as the lovely Sarah. Adopted sisters, yes we are, and I thank the heavens for that.

When we were younger I would carry her and tote her anywhere she wanted to go. So tiny, she was like a little monkey that would cling to my back as I did things that could have killed us both.

And then one of us….or both of us would get hurt. But we found that there’s nothing which laughter, sparkling juice and Utz chips can’t fix. So get up, brush the dirt off your filthy clothes and keep tackling life.

And keep running towards the people and things you love without hesitation. Run, leap, sprint, jump and cartwheel your way blissfully down life’s road.

All photographs were taken by the very talented Evan Lentz.

Eggton - This just makes me happy. I wish you both lots of brightness ahead. I am from Virginia, and if you guys have to be in different places, Virginia is a beautiful place for her to be!

Katherine
(www.eggton.com – a blog about moving to Alabama and cooking dinner)

Possessed

Knowing how much you have missed Evan’s presence around here and his otherworldly food photography, you might want to catch a glimpse of the amazing stuff he’s creating.

Evan has been pumping out original, one-of-a-kind pieces of wooden jewelry, as though possessed. He is selling them like mad at Etsy.

He features reclaimed wood, natural and handmade stains, and simple dried mosses.

To see more of his projects…..follow me!!!!

SarahLaP - Evan really is a stud. I want a necklace when I see you guys!!!!!

Auntie

“What are you eating?” I whispered to my great aunt. “What in the world is that?!”

Stopping mid-bite, she slowly glanced around the room, wondering who else had caught her. When her eyes finally reached mine, her head was tilted downward like a pitiful golden retriever who had been caught eating the Thanksgiving turkey.

Auntie Phoebe sat perched at her kitchen table, daintily fondling some peculiar looking sandwich. With only the tips of her fingers touching the bread it was like she either didn’t want to crush her delicate lunch or she didn’t want to fully claim the meal as her own.

“Oh, it’s absolutely scrumptious. You really must try it,” she said with a slightly Southern accent. Between two very white pieces of bread were slivers of something green nuzzled into puddles of brown goo. Pushing it towards my face she instructed, “just close your eyes and taste it.” Following her directions, I blindly ventured into my 80-year-old aunt’s culinary world. “Don’t you love it?,” she asked, quietly clapping her hands? Crunchy, salty, tart, nutty and barely sweet. O.K. I loved it.

A peanut butter and pickle sandwich taught me to never be skeptical of strange flavor combinations. Fried chicken and chocolate glaze? Bring it! Avocado buttercream and wheatgrass scented cake? Hell yeah! Thank you Auntie for always surprising me and tricking me into thinking outside the box.

Peanut Butter And Pickle Sandwich recipe by Phoebe Myers

Ingredients

2 pieces of Bread

2 Pickles, thinly sliced

2 Tablespoons Peanut Butter

Directions

Spread your peanut butter evenly over a piece of bread. Pile your pickles on top and place the other piece of bread over the pickles. Devour.

Kazia Jankowski - I love this combination as well, try adding jelly and a slice of salami!

Kirsten - Kazia- Jelly and Salami?!!! Wowza. Love it!

Evan - Oh god, my mouth is getting warm and frothy, there is no way I would eat pickles and peanut butter, or eggs and ketchup, or eggplant ever again. I like the way you describe it – you make me laugh!

SarahLaP - I must try!

Cookie - Have you ever had chocolate gravy over buttered toast? It’s an old southern breakfast treat…..

Kirsten - Cookie-Chocolate gravy and toast?!! Yummmmmmmmm

Christi Abercrombie - OH, my!!! Kirsten, I’m just now seeing this!!! Mom taught me to LOVE PB&P sandwiches growing up….I think it’s a Lintner thing, LOL!

Kirsten - Christ- so glad you saw this post!! You mother is SO adorable and brilliant beyond belief. Love, Kirsten